when i first started this blog
i was very very shy about sharing
and my genitalia.
this was partly because
i wasn’t looking at it myself.
i never had.
the truth be i could barely “be”
with that region or that detail about my body.
i know, hard to believe.
but …its true!
as i began to “look”
i discovered things.
despite one breast pointing south so to speak,
i still have nice breasts.
how graceful the movement of my arms can be
or the way my shoulders shift.
i noticed …
how really really round my butt is
how hairy it is (!)
how lippy my labia is
how incredibly hairy i am elsewhere.
i found myself looking
from the perspective
of how beautiful
a man finds the body of a woman.
this was tremendous to think of myself this way
vs what my mind has thought all along.
in a state of readiness
such as this
i share myself
in comparison to how i began
this is a dramatic shift.
i share now with such
i also feel
one of the novelties of social media
is that if folks do it correctly
they get a sense of personal voice
they also develop a following.
i have experienced this in multiple online ways
and i have especially experienced it here.
the devoted fans and commenters came here
many many many have stayed.
that gives voice and expression
also can bring depth and meaning
to what we do as bloggers online.
in my day to day i am a single, lonely, curvy, hairy middle aged woman.
many of you have me feel very treasured.
this sentiment and care
has me continue to be here!
it’s quite the lovely thing!
i am tremendously thankful
for those who care, stare (!) and share.