what keeps me here
and what keeps me nude
and, i can’t say enough how much i love that.
in recent times though
some of you
have simply not had me want to be here.
thus an entire month has now transpired
with just one set taken of playful nude photography.
which i had not paid attention to until now.
there is more going on in my life besides disrespectful fans.
i am struggling.
and i am alone.
none of that is new.
much of that is on me.
suffice to say though
being in my face, expectant and rude
in relationship to my nudity, my photography, my art
has not helped.
I have dismantled my Patreon profile.
it’s there but all the posts are gone.
and perhaps i will find a way to reword it
i do not feel patreon is the issue.
the opportunity to be an actual patron
is still there.
should that be of interest to anyone of you
I will not be part of this “expectation” stuff.
not there, here or
a bit back
on my online dating profile
some men, not just one
shared that they thought my artful, playful, beautiful self imagery
was a reason to “put out”
that i was a tease. and other not so kind words.
whatever comments they shared I feel were their issues
but many comments like that, in a row? and in my face?
just not in the mood for it.
add my current struggles, and my not feeling particularly appealing.
it just makes me want to button myself up.
which does not feel good.